I have no idea why but I just feel that I am a little overwhelmed and tired.
This morning on the way to work, my mood crashed... I broke down when I eventually reached school.
Teared a little... not those cry my eyes out kind.
This is the third week at work and I am not happy.
Not happy having to leave the baby at home, not happy to have to walk out of the house with her crying behind, not happy having to pry her little fingers off me and hand her to my mum, not happy to be holding her when she naps in the afternoon, not happy to hear her little feet plattering around me...
So the whole emotion thingy is making me sick in the tummy this morning (or is it due to the fact that I have yet to eat my breakfast?)
Then in the train, I sat happily reading my novel (which depicts a 50 year old lady who had an affair and now is pregnant... how I wish I can be home and be a new mummy again!). The people started to fill the train and I was oblivious to them. I usually will look around and see if there is anyone who needs the seat more than me but today I did not bother.
There was an elder man but he don't seems to need the seat and he is not very near me too. I carried on readin till the train reached my stop. As I stood to alight, the elder man wobbled his way to my now vacant seat.
By then, my heart had already dropped to my feet. What a selfish spoilt brat I was... I cannot stop blaming myself till now.
Yup... my emotions were haywired by the time I reached school so I cried (a little).
Now... I am trying very hard to concentrate on my work... which you can see that I cannot... haiz...
I need some therapy... retail? crafting?
And on a lighter note, thanks for the nice comments about the rubix cube. It can be quite fun trying to solve it. Now with the formula in hand, it doesn't seems tuanting anymore.
Lastly, I leave you with this cute little face.
That is Ash around 2 years old.