Everything seems to be not going smoothly

As much as I want to be cheery and as much as I brainwash myself that things will iron out soon, it seemed not to be happening.

Things are getting very difficult for me to handle here on my side of the world. I have been trying and trying but it seemed to be going nowhere except downwards to the deepest pit.

I am still trusting in the Lord that He would show me the way. I try not to lean on my own understanding and am trying to listen to what He have to say to me. However, all I hear is silence or my own head pounding in pain.

No... this is no cheery post and I am not comfortable telling everyone what difficulty I or we are facing. I only know that I have to try harder and harder I am really trying but nothing seems to be working.

At this time I can only remember this particular hymn...
Onward Christian Solider...

Yes... onward I will go in the name of the Lord.
With His strength and His blessing, I believe we will be able to iron out all the problems.