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Friday, September 09, 2005

就是你

我的心扑通的跳。
我的手心流着汗。
我的眼睛偷偷的望着你。
不知何时,
你就像白马王子的在我身旁。
我的心就在那时被你偷走。
你的笑容可以把我的疲惫融化。
你的一个眼神可以然我把悲伤忘了。
就是你!
没有别人,
就是你。。。 。。。
能把我心里的阴天变得灿烂。
就是你在我不知不觉中偷走了我的心。
就是你!

Thursday, September 08, 2005

哭泣的心

天很亮,心很沉重。
雨一直不肯下,眼泪不停的流。
身边只有风在说话。
怎么听也听不到你的声音。
你在那里?
是不是以把我忘了?
风。。。 。。。
我请它把思恋带给你。
听到了吗?
我哭泣的心。

Pix with Wei Cong


Kind of vain here. Since next year I will be teaching digital art, I decided to play around with Adobe photo. So I took the picture that was taken at the studio and tried.

Actually, in the original picture there were Derek and Li Min (one of the account girls) but I cropped them out....ha ha ha

Then I also touched up the photo to eliminate all the oily skins. So ... this doesn't look very bad.


For vainity sake, I will leave this up here for a few days and then delete it. I don't want to risk any threats.

星星陪我

看着你的背影,
我的心隐隐的痛。
你的脚步声越远,
我的痛越无法沉受。
一个人站在街边,
一个人伤痛。
不知何时痛会离我远去。
走在街上,
望着星星。
他们如对我说,
痛会走,心会好!
我明了。。。 。。。 应为有星星陪着我。

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Visit to the studio

The visit to the studio yesterday was not very good. The reason was because my brother-in-law caame after us (husband and myself) and when he saw me he was not very happy. Apparently he doesn't like visitation to his artistes.

PUUUUUUIIIII... but why his sister can bring the account girls there to see their favourite Derek. I only went there to see Wei Cong in real life and then also help hubby set up the printer-fax for the sound engineer. Not as if I go there and be a crazy teenage idol chasing fan.


In the end, for two hours I sat very still at the resting area, reading my book and only got up to help hubby when he asked me to. Hubby did ask me to take out my camera and take some pix.s with Wei Cong but after seeing his brother's face, I better keep quiet at one corner.

During that two hours, Wei cong had walked around and i am so bloody tempted to look at him but think better of it...i continued to read my book.

Then the account girls came along with my sister-in-law and then they were super elated cos they managed to get the photograph of Derek. Especially the youngest one, cos' she is really goo goo ga ga over Derek. I am happy for her... at least that can boost her energy.

When we eventually left the studio, we bumped into Derek who came in from the other studio. The hubby told me to go back and get take photo... ran back, then togetehr with the youngest account girl, we took a photo and then I left hastily...fearful that my brother-in-law will return.


However, Wei Cong is not the totally main reason I am at the studio... it is because i really am trying to know how they do the music recording. Don't forget that I am a multimedia freak... I love to dabble with all these. Actually before i resigned, I did ask if I could understudy the sound engineer during the school holidays and then set up a studio in school. Now...



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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Activities for the day

For the start, we woke up late and had to rush cos' my mum would be late for work.

Next, I am home now...getting ready to start the second part of the cleaning out of my princess' room. Then later in the afternoon, I will be popping into the studio to see Weicong an Derek whilst they do their recordings for the Superstar compliation.

Must make sure I look nice nice...like a Tai Tai or at least not like an Ah Soh.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Cleaning out

Have been doing spring cleaning of the house eversince I resigned from Punggol. I started with the study room but there is still a lot to be done. Although I managed to shift princess' toys out of there and into the living room. They are now neatly kept on the shelves and they are covered so not so bad...plus went Ikea to buy lots of storage box for her toys. So her toys are in the boxes and hence doesn't look horrible when anyone looks at it.

After a few weeks of rest, I tackled the storeroom. That is a very very very difficult task. However, I managed to do it. I am very happy over my good job... I am not thick skin here but it really is a good job. Since I managed to organised it in such a manner that I can actually go inside the storeroom and lay down...although I cannot totally straighten my body...since I am that LONG! Still it is better than before whereby I could only put a foot inside and then do my balancing act.

And after another two more weeks of rest, today I tackled my princess' wardrobe. I spent the whole morning trying to get things organised and really I had to force myself to throw out some of her old clothes and that hurts cos' it made me realise that she has really grown. However, that is not the end of her room. I have to tackle the bookshelves and study area tomorrow.

As for now... I need to go vacuum the floor and change my rabbit's and chincilla's beddings.... then rush to the childcare centre to meet princess' teacher... who does nothing but complains about her. Other teachers don't usually do that... they also say good things first, then a little complaints and then how to work together to solve the problems. However, this one is totally different. Nothing goo dseems to be coming from her mouth.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Sick

Today, I stayed home sick. Would really want to go to work but my throat infection is really bad. I can hardly swallow my saliva without crying out loud in pain. The pain is not only in my throat but also in my ears. Don't think I can teach the boys so I better stay home and rest.


Look like after today and when the September holiday is over, I have to clock in more hours in school to earn back all the money. Reason...we will be going to Bangkok in October...then all my earnings will disappear.

But still it is okay because I am enjoying my work. Never once I tell myself I don feel like going to school. So that is a good sign.

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Bad Day?

Yesterday was not the best day on my life, not counting the day that my dad passed away. Made the decision to go to the zoo but the morning was gloomy...or the whole day was gloomy. However, since we need to go renew out membership we had to go.

After breakfast at the coffeeshop, hopped into the car and off we went. Halfway through SLE, I suddenly rememebered my daughter's water bottle. Realising that no one had it, we shook our head and just drove on... what else can we do? It was left in the coffeeshop.

At the zoo, we fought with the weather or should I say the sun and the gloomy clouds had some battle. It drizzled then the sun shone then it drizzled and the sun shone again and so on. Then the princess decided that she was tired and hungry. Ended our trip at the zoo for lunch.

Since the princess was tired, we headed home for the afternoon nap. Upon reaching the junction before our flat, we saw the aftermath of an accident. A car with a taxi or vice versa... the passenger of the taxi was pinned in the taxi and the paramedics were trying hard to get the victim out. The driver of the red car sat on the pavement ... dazed.

The rest of the afternoon was still alright. We napped and then went to music class with princess and was invited to pizza dinner with my mother and elder brother. Till then the day was still relatively good so we thought it is getting better.

On the way home from Pasir Ris while entering TPE, saw the aftermath of another accident. A car and a motorcycle. The motorcycle in pinned under the front bumper of the car, a groupd of motorists hurdling on the side pavement and a girl crying... where is the driver and the motorist? According to my mum, the motorist was not terribly injured but sitting at the pavement with his jeans rolled up with a few scratches.

So we confirmed that it was a terrible day and I uttered silent prayers for all victims of the accidents. Went home...wanted to rest ... but got fed up of the grown man in the room playing game as he seemed to have played for the whole week. Got into a squabble with him, along with a cat and dog fight and then ended with us laughing at the pain that we caused each other. It was not a bad kind of quarrel...its a 'I am bored so u are in trouble' kind of squabble.


Today is not as good... I nearly got into an accident and am still very puzzled why the other car knowing that I am changing lane did not slow down but came right up to my backside and honked me into a nervous wreck. He is a young 'chongster'! I almost showed him my tallest finger but thought better of it.


Let's pray that tomorrow is better. Btw, we found the water bottle...the cleaners at the coffeeshop put it aside.

Sunday, August 07, 2005

3 weeks into the job

It has been three weeks since I started my adjunct teaching stint. I am glad that I have this job and able to be around people that I have known. It is very comforting to be back at home base rather than out in the open with everyone vying to get to the top of the ladder.

I do not deny that before I quit teaching, I did want to climb up to the middle management position so was really trying very hard but minus the stepping on others. I cannot do that and do not know how to do that. Instead when others are in trouble, I put in my time to help but all these was not appreciated. Now I gave up the job and my career but at least I have a peace of mind. I can only try to give my best in my current job.

Now I am doing the online assignment thingy and it can get on my nerves since some teachers are totally not cooperative. They refused to put in the effort to push the pupils to complete the assignments so I have go do all the dirty work.

Next, I am teaching the P5 EM3 Maths class. Kind of cute... those boys! I only have 4 of them in my class and they are delightful, unlike those in my previous school. To my surprise, I enjoy teaching them and really hope that I am able to push them forward and build up their confidence in themselves.

Now I am taking a rest since Monday I do not need to go to work, I can have the long weekend to rest and relax.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Got the job

Yesterday, I was saying that there is a possiblity that I may not have the adjunct teacher job...luckily I've gotten it. So I strted work yesterday and everything seems to be going quite alright.

Now, I have to quickly make a decision. The maths HOD has asked me whether Iwould like to take up the P5 EM3 class. There are nine pupils in there and each of them can be quite difficult to handle in terms of behaviour. Now I am at a lost and really wonder whether I am able to do it.

I need a sign from above and Ineed one that is loud and clear since I am always so deaf. Sometimes, He does speak tome butI am not able to hear. So I hope this time, I cna hear Him and what He plans for me to do.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I am starting my new job!

Yippeeeee... yesterday checked my status of appointment as relief teacher and it was approved. So, today I am starting work already!

First thing I need to do when at work is to get all the adminstrative things done with the clerk. Then I've got to meet the P5 teachers to discuss about the things that I am suppose to do for them. After that I've got to find the P3 leave reps to get all the worksheets to sort out.

I wonder how would I feel returning to my old workplace and see my old colleagues. I am a bit scared but definitely happier than in Punggol.

The strange thing is that the pebble that we were suppose to do and then mounted up on the wall of the reception area is still there after so many years. At least for 5 years ... I am very very surprised and thought ...maybe... I am suppose to return to this school after all.

I promise myself that this time I will try my best and put my best foot forward. Forget about the people and stress I had in Punggol.


Yipppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... work.... or NOT!!!

Just got a call from the school and was told that the HQ did not approve of me being adjunct teacher yet. So I have to sit here and wait till 12 p.m. for her to get a hold of HQ and settle the problem. AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Friday, July 15, 2005

What happened for the rest of the HK trip?

Nothing worth writing about cos' there was a big quarrel and more shopping. So I wish to put that behind and move on.

Came back home on Monday night and was quite surprise at the state of my house. It ws very bright, clean and neat. Then we realised that Kenny's cousin actually tidied up the house for us when she came over to feed the two little lovable pets.


Then I started to feel a little bit guilty cos' I am definitely not able to keep my house clean and tidy and require the help of someone else. I am very embarrassed and is now seriously looking into how to improve my situation.


There are a few things which I need to change. People will usually wait till the next new year then make the new year resolution but I decided I cannot wait so long. Anyway, with my old job out of the way and me having to start as adjunct teacher back in ACS, I consider it a new start and hence I must make the changes NOW!

The changes:
1. Need to take charge of the house and make sure that everything is as neat and as tidy as possible.
2. Make a timetable to assist me in tidying the house.
3. Curb my expenditure by monitoring how much I spent everyday.
4. Take over the financial management of the house and really be the boss of the house.
5. Spend time with my princess playing and not just studying and teaching. (A lot can be learnt thru' play)
6. Make time for exercising...morning jogs around the estate ... if cannot at least a brisk walk.
7. More couple time with Kenny... we need to establish better communication.
8. Lastly... but the most important... my quiet time with GOD.


That's a lot of changes but I am determine to accomplish them.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Fourth Day in Hong Kong

Was suppose to leave the house by 7 a.m. but we dragged till 8 a.m. Not all of us managaed to wake up on time. Then we set off for Shen Zhen.

Took the MTR and went to Shen Zhen. Then rushed to the custom and then the usual custom checks.

After that went to the building just beside the custom. Ate breakfast, which was very sumptuous. Then we went shopping...start searching for the branded bags. Wow! The people there were very aggressive. They will hussle you all the way till you relent and buy from them but we have refused strongly. The best part is the bargaining. For example, they quote the price of HK$300 and you are not happy with it you bargain. So let say, I want to only pay HK$100, so I quote them my price. If they cannot agree, we go away...they can come chasing you shouting,"$250...come on lah...very cheap already." You continue to walk away. "Come lah, pretty lady...$200 ...can?" Walk further away, ignoring the price. "$150... last price!" Continue to walk away. "Okay okay lah...$100." Turn back and then go buy it!


However, the irritating part is that we have to wait for those people to go to the warehouse to get the goods and you can wait up to half and hour. Sometimes after waiting for half an hour it could be a disappointing wait.

After a few shops, we managed to find a shop assistant who was willing to bring us to the warehouse to choose. So we went but there isn't many and if we want, we still have to wait for the runners to go get the goods but at least the quality of the goods are not that bad.

By the time we return home, it was already almost twelve midnight.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Third Day In Hong Kong

Change of plans, did not go to Shen Zhen today because mother-in-law's maid required a visa. So the whole gang have to go down to Tsim Sha Shui to get it done.

Took the MTR to the destination, waited patiently while they went to get the vis a done. Then tried to find a place to eat breakfast or brunch. While waiting for the resturant to be ready, Kenny, princess and myself went to have a look around. Pop into a shop and bought 4 pieces of clothes at less then S$90. A good buy and the ladies were nice.

When we returned to meet up with them...sad to say it was not very happy. Got told off by Kenny's sister that we should keep to the time and if we wanted to shop should do it later. She was not happy waiting for us. (I am upset...definitely. Cos' most of the time when there is a need to go out together Kenny, Princess and myself have to wait for them. Sometimes, we have to do that waiting game for up to half an hour or an hour... and did I complain? NO!)


After that unhappy brunch, we went shopping again. Of course, since I was told of already, I quietly followed them. As usual the three of us waited while they shopped...I complained? NO! At the second street, think they wanted to shake us off so told us to go our own way so that we did.


We went to Mongkok, where the Ladies Street is. Quite alright there, except that there are many many many people. Got a few more items and then realised that we ran out of cash. Caught a policewoman and asked her directions to the nearest Citibank. We decided to withdraw money. Then we went for desserts. Cool... I love the Zi Mah Hu. Unlike those in Singapore, it is nice and smooth.


After the recharge, we went back to Ladies Street and do more shopping. Came home with many many bags and this time they are MINE!!!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Second Day in Hong Kong

Woke up like 6 in the morning because it was kind of difficult to sleep in the tight space. Plus, the sky was already very bright outside so mistook it to be 7 or 8 a.m.

Once the moring stuff had been done and breakfast, we sat around and wasted time as the shops don't open early in HK. Plus, today we are going separate ways from Kenny's mother and sister. They are going to Macau to the new casino while we will go to Stanley Market to buy clothes for the princess.

Last year we went to Stanley Market at the end of our trip, we did not have much cash left to buy stuff for the princess. So this year, we decided that we will go there first. So at the end of the afternoon, we really did buy a lot of clothes for the princess... as many as 10 sets ( I think... there will about four to five bags of her clothes!)

Then we took the mini bus back to Causeway Bay. Back there, ww shopped even more. Actually, we were tired but because I wanted to take photos of the busy streets in the day and in the night, we had to continue shopping. Thought I would be the one spending the most money this time? Nope! Kenny did... he bought 4 Polo T-shirts anf 4 collar shirts...all at U2 and the collar shirts were cheap. Each costs HK$59 which is around S$15.

End of the day... I was the loser of all the shopping. Of all the bags, there were only three of my items! :(


Tomorrow... Shen Zhen in China. But our legs are breaking into pieces.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

First Day In Hong Kong

Today, we set off for HK. Woke up at 7 a.m. to get ready and then went to the airport to check in and to eat breakfast. Everything seemed okay... except that if all will just cooperate instead of just being a selfish brat.


Anyway, it was kind of terrible on flight. That was because we accounted about an hour of turbulance so flight was very bumpy and hence developed a rather nasty migraine. Did not manage to eat lunch too. First, I had to make sure that my little princess ate, so I fed her. Second, that air sickness was not very helpful to my digestive system.

Finally made it to HK and then my brother-in-law's house. All things were alright. Settled down and then went out again to eat dinner. Then come the next wave of stress... people! Wow...talk about the crowd in Singapore. The crowd here is about double that in Singapore.


After dinner, shopped and managed to buy two pieces of clothes. Then we shopped for groceries for breakfast for tomorrow.


As for the plan for tomorrow... who knows? I know that I want to go down to the streets at night again and practice my photograhy skills. How I wish I have my Cannon 300D (in my dreams!)

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Last Day of Work... Start of New Life

Yes... 30 June 2005 marks the end of my five and a half years career with MOE. After these years, I realised that I have yet to achieve my dreams of being a good teacher. I guess passion is not enough to be a good teacher... I need more ...X factor!


Walked out of the school feeling very empty because I suddenly lost a big part of my life...teaching. I have tried other kinds of work but realised that the only thing I can do is teach. However, today is also the day that the parent of my one and only tuition kid sacked me. Sad? Absolutely. Why? The reason was I made the child find the meanings of the words in the dictionary and she thought that he had wasted too much time there. However, I do not find that it is wrong because only through such manner the child then can learn the meanings. Since his mother had dutifully written down the meanings of some words she found for him to learn but he simply ignored it, I know he has to be a little more dilligent to improve. Another reason, there was some spelling mistakes made by me. If I can remember correctly it was only two because I was very tired. I was too careless...should not have let my guard down.


But I hope I still have a little light glowing straight ahead. ACS has decided to engaged me as Adjunct Teacher...partime teacher on flexible hours. I hope God will keep this door open for me.


If you are reading this, please pray for me.

Next challenge, to let my mum know that I have resigned. That is a very tough one cos' I know she will be worried.


Geraldine, I still do not understabd the tagboard thingy...so give me a bit more time to get it up.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Holiday Time

It is holiday time but it is in the third week of the June holiday. I did not do anything much though. I tried to call tuition agencies for tuition but so far only one assignment is confirmed. I am starting tomorrow.

Had a job as a Speech and Drama teacher but that did not work out. The company is so fake. They did the interview over the phone and then told a big fat lie to the the principal of the child care centre that I am a very experienced Speech and Drama teacher; which I am not!


I have to finish all the worksheets for the school soon. Not only that the publication have to be out soon if not my head will really roll off to ... I do not know where.


Hmm.... back to work now.

Friday, June 03, 2005

It's been about two weeks

Well, it's true. It had been about two weeks since I last blogged. Was so overwhelmed with work that I cannot breathe. The last two weeks of school were really hectic.

First, we had to ensure that the pupils were able to complete the project work in time for the Open House. Eventhough my pupils' work may not be as fabulous as the top two classes but I think they should also have a chance to display their work. So I tried really hard to ensure that most of their final products were presentable. To my great relieve, they actually did better than I had expected.

Second, we also had to prepare the items to be sold in the charity fair held during the Open House. So I was trying to get the pupils to get as many beads handicraft done as possible. On top of that, I went home and continued with the handicrafts. I roped in both my husband and daughter to help. So we spent a few nights bent over the craft.

Third, we had to ensure that the report books are ready to be given out to the pupils. However, there was a delay from the top. They issued out a letter informing parents that the report books would be released on Tuesday (after the Vesak Day holiday). So we stayed back on Friday to print and check the result slips, signed them and dumped it in their trays for them to sign over the weekend. Alas, it was not done... on Tuesday, everything was still sittng snuggly in the trays.


However, all work and no play makes me a dull person. So over the Vesak Day long weekend, we visited the various farms in Choa Chu Kang. I had my eye on a dwarf rabbit. It was so docile and lovely. I fell in love with it immediately. Most importantly, my daughter was also attracted to it. She kept on patting it and even talked to it. However, my husband was not really touched by that little fellow. So we left it and went to look for other adventures.

My daughter kept insisting on catching fish. So we went to a particular shop that allowed us to catch as many fiah as we want at no time limit for just the price of $4. So we did. Together with her, we caught about 20 over little fish and she was beaming with joy after that.


Relentless over the issue of the rabbit, I harassed my husband. So he gave in at the end. In the same evening, we rushed down to another pet shop to have a look at the dwarf rabbit that was on sale there but was quite disappointed.


Guess what? The next day, we went back to Choa Chu Kang and found that little adorable rabbit and bought it back home. So now we officially have two pets; a chincilla and a dwarf rabbit.


As for the 20 over fish that we caught, in the span of two weeks, they died. Guess we are not really suitable for rearing fish. This is not the first time that fish die on us.


And we are going to the zoo tomorrow!